Pony Ride

Observed your twists, watched your silhouette form as you blocked out the moon
Watched it reappear behind you
Began to love seeing it disappear behind you
As I winced in pain
Began to crave it still
Though the pain was excruciating
Watching you ride on
Watching you
Craving you

You took me for a ride, you
Though I cried, you rode on still
Long enough
Hard enough
I just couldn’t, satisfy you
You reached over, and in the dark, feeling on my sheets
You grabbed her
And suddenly, I realized
I wish it did not take me so long
I wish I had known what I knew all along

I realized then
You are not the god I thought you’d be
Amongst the lowest of the low
Beneath the ground, underneath the earth
Crawling with the worms, though underserving of that
You wore the devil’s shell ever so well
Deceit at it’s best
You acted out the god I needed then
One hell of a mirage
Shatan was this man.

So on this day as I move through my daily routine
Washing the dishes, and fixing the holes in my walls
I realize, that I changed on the avenue that is you
I did, I changed, I did
Something within me was made anew
Something dark, deceitful, and blue

But the sun is out today
And the trees are begging in your name
Asking for a new breeze to be let through
The birds are chirping new songs
Nothing familiar; all new
And my face is dry, no more streaming
I am healed, the wounds are scars
I can speak your name without hate
I can sleep without dreaming everynight of the numerous ways you could be found dead at the street corner

Do you understand?

Somewhere along the way
I had stopped wondering what could have been
See,
Life took over
Time pulled me through
Somewhere along the way
I had forgiven you.


26/09/2011

We breed these.

Dark, loud, fashion artists.
Lovers of bigger rides than their pants...
bigger whips than their dicks.

Stuck in the mud of their ways
Dying of the historic stench of bullshit
Bull... shit.

Love to dominate
Hate to advance past anything that is white
Idolize anything that isnt them
Halleluyah-tipped shoe rockers
Bull... shit.

A'we'a breed the ones who dont see
Blinder than a spot
They never fail to forget who bred them.
It is no fault of theirs.
So I guess

Weeeeeak!
Meager in thoughts though louder than roars
They'd call your bluff only to run when you come
Selfish beings that don't know just how to care.
Just HOW to care.

Void of feeling.
Users.

Void of shame.
Such cruel beings.

They'd use "history!" and call on memories of our forefathers
To justify the horrors of their ways.
Yet claim that history is to be abandoned
As they go ahead, and break the rules of our cultures.

For the most part, our men are wack.
But it really isn't their fault.
Afterall,
we breed them.
So I guess.

Whats it to you?

The love that you show me.
Amazing.
The things you teach me.
How forgiving, and relentlessly caring.
How easily you are able to be
So gentle
So warm
So expressive
Its...in the love that you show me.
Amazing.

The world we live in.
Amazing.
365 days of finger pointing.
Yet patiently, we say, awaiting judgement day.
How can that truly be?
Confusing.
Cold
Beyond me.
Its...the world we live in.
Amazing.

The things I wonder about.
Amazing,
How love can be hated so deeply
As poverty abounds, fiercely digging early graves
Weakened fingers and all
Here we are, hating on love
Silly
Isnt it?

...to exhale.

If I hold on
And heave
and a ho
And push
and a shove

Just for four more months.

I just might soon realize
That four months, is only but a short time to breath.

testing

testing testing

This Introspective Language.

Quieter than a whisper
Far more solemn than a ballad
These interactions within myself
Quietly so, solemn so.
I was once asked
What language we speak
Both me and I, when we converse and…
I cant truly say I know
Because I don’t see myself uttering words
Telepathically, you may say,
I just say a hello
And I know, without a doubt, that myself too, is responding…

“hey ma’am, how you been since the last time we ‘seen?”

*Impending discussion*

One can only hope
That the tongue remains
The heart’s messenger
And that it relates
Verbatim
The queen’s words.

Time will tell then,
What will be said
What is felt
In the heart
Where I wish to be
My world.

Death to the Follicles!

If every woman decided not to shave her pubes
Would every heterosexual male get disgusted?
Would he get to chasing her around, with a razor, yelling
“death to thy follicles”?
Would he
In an attempt to please himself
In an attempt to have a muse, a rhythmic being to stroke himself to,
Shave HIS pubes, turn autosexual, and love himself down?
Would he?
Scrub get tubes of Nairs and layer his legs
Protest!
Scream on top of his lungs, for fairness?!
Would he, though?
I wonder…
Only God knows for sure,
But something tells me, he’d be hysterical, Act out,
Pull the disgusting card
And eventually, in the thick of the night
When he’s ready to calm the fuck down
When his dick gets restless, rigid, and warm
He’d come banging on her hairy pube’s door.
8:43pm September 28 2011

Writer's block :(

I need a muse.

Summer 2011: The summer of `~*jewels*~`

I raided Afrofest stalls and a new retro jewels store I just stumbled on.

...Pic's 'a comin ;)